The older I get, the more wisdom I gain, and as my relationship with the Lord continues to evolve and grow, things just become much more simplified.
I don’t worry about the things that I used to. Things that used to get me upset/worked up, things that used to hurt my feelings, etc. just don’t matter to me the way they used to. I know what is important and who is important in my life and I choose to put my focus in those places. I have learned how to use the word no more often and when appropriate. I have learned to stand up for myself, other people, and the things that I believe in. The coolest part about that is that I have learned that standing up for yourself doesn’t always require taking action. I have learned that it is more than okay, and even healthy, to distance myself from things and people that do not add to my life. I don’t have relationships out of obligation. I have chosen not to make commitments only out of obligation. I have learned to take the time to stop and think about where my time, which is so valuable, is best spent. I put my energy towards and invest myself in what best serves me, my children, and my goals. There is good reason behind what I do, what I say, and the decisions I make and not only do I stand firmly behind each of those things; I owe no one an apology or explanation for them either. I have learned that you teach people how to treat you and I no longer have any interest in allowing myself to be in any situation in which I am treated any less than what I deserve. I have learned that what other people think of me and what they have said or might say about me is none of my business. I do not need to defend myself or correct anyone who speaks untruths about me. God will take care of that! I have learned to forgive and let go, even when forgiveness isn’t asked for. I have learned to pray for those who have hurt me, give that hurt to God, and move forward with peace in my heart. I have learned, whole heartedly believe, and trust in the fact that God is my defender and my protector and will take care of all matters concerning me.
Life is too short and I’m too busy, working toward things that line up with the will of God for my life, to care about insignificant things anymore.
I have been through hell and back. I have fallen, been in places of hopelessness and wanted to give up.
BUT most importantly…
I have overcome many things that could have completely broken me. I have gotten back up, dusted myself off many times, and continued to move forward. I have grown. I have learned.