I missed you so much today.
I’ll miss you tomorrow too.
Not a single day goes by
that I don’t think of you.
How does a heart broken continue to beat;
how can it possibly go on?
When there are pieces forever missing
because you are gone?
Some say, “you need to get past it.”
Some say, “enough time has gone by.”
They can’t fathom this kind of pain;
I wouldn’t want them to even try.
There are days I feel it’s too much bear.
There are times I think I can’t make it through.
I remind myself that, some day, we will be together again.
For now, the memories will have to do.

Published by Joni@GrieftoLife

Gotta love the 'About Me' sections of everything. I feel like I'm either in a one sided interview or trying to create a dating profile. "I like starry nights and long walks on the beach" Ha! All jokes aside, it is necessary to share your story. Especially in a place like this where you hope to reach people through your struggles. So here goes everything... Hi everyone 👋🏼 Grief is a journey, an ever changing and painful process. It can isolate you and make you feel more lonely than one could ever imagine. That is why I write and share my story. We need support. We need people that "get it." We need each other. I was married to the love of my life, just shy of 13 years. We went to school together, known him since elementary. He was my "boyfriend" in 5th grade. I even wrote "Joni Roberts" in my notebooks and cheered for him when he played basketball at recess 😂 We came back together when we went to the prom, as friends, our senior year in high school. That was in 1997. We started dating seriously in the summer of 1998. He asked me to be his wife in February of 1999. We said "I do" on October 2nd of the same year. We had our first child in October of 2000, our son. We had our daughter, 22 months later in August of 2002. In the time we were married, we went through more than most could go through in a lifetime. We never gave up on each other. In June of 2012, he and I were in a horrible car accident that claimed his life. In an instant, my entire world was shattered, leaving me a grieving single mother of two grieving children who are now teenagers. I'm walking day by day through life without the one that would be with me forever. I would have never imagined that this is where I would be in my life at 38 years old. But, I am doing everything I can to be strong, to raise our two children, to take this grief and use it to fuel the purpose for the rest of my days here on earth. ONE. DAY. AT. A. TIME. Today: I am in the waiting room for my first neurologist appointment. It is in the same office as my surgeon from the accident. I'm sitting here remembering myself horribly hurt and in a wheelchair and I'm overwhelmed with feelings but mostly reflecting on how far I've come. I love and miss my best friend every single day. I'm positive that won't change until we are together again. I am choosing to try and live my life in a way that would honor him and make him proud. Living With Purpose.

18 thoughts on “Memories

  1. I understand. The 9th anniversary of my son’s death is coming up in May, just after Mother’s Day. Time helps the pain, but there are still some days here and there of intense sorrow, because we miss them. Keep up the good fight, so you can help your little ones know their father through you. I’m sure Heavenly Father allows him glimpses of you so he will know how you are doing, make him proud.

  2. Joni, you are an amazing, sensitive woman of God. I thank you for being so honest and open, sharing your heart. You are a blessing to many.
    I pray you experience the Presence of our Lord Jesus, and His Peace, in a mighty way. Also for the Comforter Himself, the Spirit of the Resurrected Christ, to minister to you, holding you close.
    God Bless you Joni.

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