On this day 6 years ago, I had no idea that in one short week, our lives would be forever changed. In an instant.
Some days it feels like yesterday while other days it seems like it’s been an entire lifetime since I’ve seen you.
So much has happened.
You’ve missed so much.
What I’m finally realizing?
I’VE MISSED SO MUCH
The majority of the last 6 years has been spent going through the motions, getting by each day, surviving. We have come so very far, but the fact still remains that I haven’t been able to truly live.
Why haven’t I been able to live?
I haven’t been able to let go.
I wrote a post about this very thing nearly a year ago (click Letting Go to read that post) and I have done what I said I was going to do. I said I was going to try and give the pain over to God with the intention of moving forward.
How is it that I have been working at “letting go” for almost an entire year and my hurt is still so present that I’m wiping tears as I write this?
It’s a process. A long process. It takes intent. It takes work. It’s not easy.
I feel like I’ve done the work, but now what?
I have to make an actual decision, speak it out loud, and really let it go.
I know what this looks like in my mind, but my heart just can’t do it and mean it.
But I have to.
Stay tuned, friends ?
How do you let go of someone who was so much a part of you? How do you let go when your heart still loves them with every beat? How?
Joni Grief to Life