No resolution; just hope

You will see lots of posts about resolutions. You will see lots of posts that say it’s just another day. Either way you look at it, it is good to stop and reflect. It’s good to take time to think about your life, where you’ve been, the direction you want to go. I don’t do resolutions per say but I do typically look toward the new year with certain hopes. In looking back I realize that, although some of them did, a lot of those hopes each year didn’t come to pass. Should that mean that maybe it is time to give up on the idea that there are better things/better times ahead? It would be easy to do just that, I can assure you. I didn’t come this far to just give up now though. So, I’m going to think about what lies ahead and do so with renewed hope that the coming year is going to be better.
I sincerely wish you and yours the very best year ever and pray that you too will look forward with expectancy and hope.

Published by Joni@GrieftoLife

Gotta love the 'About Me' sections of everything. I feel like I'm either in a one sided interview or trying to create a dating profile. "I like starry nights and long walks on the beach" Ha! All jokes aside, it is necessary to share your story. Especially in a place like this where you hope to reach people through your struggles. So here goes everything... Hi everyone πŸ‘‹πŸΌ Grief is a journey, an ever changing and painful process. It can isolate you and make you feel more lonely than one could ever imagine. That is why I write and share my story. We need support. We need people that "get it." We need each other. I was married to the love of my life, just shy of 13 years. We went to school together, known him since elementary. He was my "boyfriend" in 5th grade. I even wrote "Joni Roberts" in my notebooks and cheered for him when he played basketball at recess πŸ˜‚ We came back together when we went to the prom, as friends, our senior year in high school. That was in 1997. We started dating seriously in the summer of 1998. He asked me to be his wife in February of 1999. We said "I do" on October 2nd of the same year. We had our first child in October of 2000, our son. We had our daughter, 22 months later in August of 2002. In the time we were married, we went through more than most could go through in a lifetime. We never gave up on each other. In June of 2012, he and I were in a horrible car accident that claimed his life. In an instant, my entire world was shattered, leaving me a grieving single mother of two grieving children who are now teenagers. I'm walking day by day through life without the one that would be with me forever. I would have never imagined that this is where I would be in my life at 38 years old. But, I am doing everything I can to be strong, to raise our two children, to take this grief and use it to fuel the purpose for the rest of my days here on earth. ONE. DAY. AT. A. TIME. Today: I am in the waiting room for my first neurologist appointment. It is in the same office as my surgeon from the accident. I'm sitting here remembering myself horribly hurt and in a wheelchair and I'm overwhelmed with feelings but mostly reflecting on how far I've come. I love and miss my best friend every single day. I'm positive that won't change until we are together again. I am choosing to try and live my life in a way that would honor him and make him proud. Living With Purpose.

4 thoughts on “No resolution; just hope

  1. Thank You Joni for your insight. I love your philosophy. This is an excellent way to approach the new year. I hope you and yours have a Happy, Healthy and Prosperous New Year.

Leave a Reply

%d bloggers like this: